I see you the next time you see me
---Thoughs on human connections, love, and the saddest thing ever: saying Goodbye.



Once when I was standing on a pier refusing to face the reality that I had to leave and might never see some people there, a staff on the pier said to a sobbing me: "I see you the next time you see me" while I finally decided to walk towards the ferry a few minutes before departure.

I didn't understand what that meant on the spot, however as time passes by, I realize that phrase in the plainest English should be interpreted as:
"People who meet will always meet", or a simple Chinese word: 缘分.

I've been wanting to write something on this topic for a very long time, but always failed to deliver a properly structured writing piece. So this is a collection of random thoughts that I felt like writing down.

Enjoy.


1. 缘分
缘分是每个人与生俱来头上和其他人牵出来的线,谁牵的具体不知道,但我猜多半是一个老神仙每天在天上慢悠悠地随心情手编,友情是橙线,爱情火花是粉线,亲情是五颜六色的,基至是擦肩而过的那种一瞬间的相遇,都叫做缘分,都早已在出生前就定好。
可这些线随着时间和一个一个小人来到人世间可能会被磨薄,或被执着着要余生一真都见的人继续缠粗,它断掉的那天就是俩人再也不见的那一天。
它有点无法翻译成英文,起码我找不到一个确切的词,因为它不是fate,不是destiny,它没有说人和人一定会怎么样的,它只说了人和人会相遇,但却从未告诉我们人和人的结局会怎样。
做个永远留有一线的人,还是那个宁可耗尽缘分再也不见也不留遗憾的人呢?
不知道,那起码做个勇敢的人。
20 Oct 2025

2. 无题
我还留着所有的转换插头,那些让我走在陌生的路上也有安全感的小东西,好像能够无缝衔接地在此地和长期生活在这里的人用一样的东西是一种接纳,我像一个用不同布料拼拼凑凑起来的大毯子一样,总会被这种接纳像熨斗一样一次又一次抚平。
可你若拆开看看,就会发现我已经被抚平的表面下拼凑的痕迹未曾少过一点,他们依然保持着可以随时四处奔走的状态,带来很多微小,但足矣的舒适和温柔。
谢谢你爱你的过去哦
26 July 2025